I Was Wrong (Divorce)

I still feel every emotion that I felt those few years ago when I pounded out those posts to my invisible audience. Every passionate stand against sin, every painful heartbreak over failed relationships, every joyful song over the love I felt as I typed out “Abba”…

It feels like a lifetime ago. I have some things to say that may contradict my previous writings… but life is a bit of a contradiction. With that, we might as well get right to the point:

                I married a guy I’d bumped into a few times at Christian camps. Honestly? I thought he wasn’t too bad looking and then I went on with my life. I didn’t care. My head and heart was set on God and if he wasn’t showing any real interest in me, I wasn’t going to bother much with it.

Just Hold Out

The scars you leave on someone, or allow someone to give you, will carry into your next relationship; eventually, they will follow you down the aisle to the altar and onto your future spouse.

They will be overcome, mended, and healed... but are they worth it?

Children Dating...

(This was from sometime last year, I must have forgotten to post it. Well, here ya go.)

Very rarely am I at a standstill when I start to write. When God stirs my heart to write, I can pull up a document and let Him type on through with minimal grammar editing before posting. Nonetheless, there are times when I am so... overcome, by a particular subject, that no matter what I say, how I say it, or how I back it up, the final product will still fall short in all my heart has longed to put into it. Still, I must try; to try and reach one person is so much more than to do nothing and reach no one.

I am nauseated and heart-broken over all the children dating.

Could you re-read that? Let it sink in.

Dating the One

I'm sure many of you have read an older blog post on this very blog: You Don't WHAT?, I definitely view as my testimony. I felt it would be best to make a separate blog post, not only to clarify but so that you might see the growth. While many may still judge me and say I'm wrong, I'm willing to take that chance; as only God is my final judge.

So here, is what one may consider an update.

Singular (not in a relationship)

In this American culture it is important that one has another (meaning you have to have to be in a relationship or something's wrong with you). Not to say that it's never been like this, relationships have always been important.

For girls especially! Girls would sit around their whole life until a potential husband finally came along (and if he didn't stick around they'd just be waiting again!). If girls were to get into their early twenties and not be married, they were in some serious trouble.

Settling

Allow me to share the burden on my heart...

I’ve restarted this three times already. I don’t know how to put what I’m feeling into words. I don’t know how to share with you the urgency on my heart… but I’m going to try. If this is meant for you then I pray that Abba will indeed open your heart to hear and understand.

Little Things [they matter]

Remember that a little leavens the whole loaf (Galatians 5:9); just a drop of snake’s venom in your blood can still be fatal. It’s the little things that do count. God is willing to give the most unsuspecting person a makeover, but who takes a makeover, loves it for a little while then throws it out the window? It’s something you keep and build on.

Entertainment

I'm not asking anybody to agree with me, I know what God has brought to my attention and asks that these not be my words but His. If you're going to read, read prayerfully. If you have any questions, feel free to ask. Thank you. --

Ladies- The Catch

This is a brief thought that I pray snags your attention girls. We are very emotional beings and while that isn’t a bad thing, we can’t just let our hearts spill all over the floor all the time; if we’re relying on Abba however, we shouldn’t have to worry about any leaks in the first place! Either way, we tend to get wrapped up in wanting to fit in and have someone to love us and for us to love. This can be very dangerous in a world that states we HAVE to have boyfriend or else something is wrong with us. The Word of God says otherwise, the Word of God says wait. I covered most of this in Proverbs 31 though, so I’m just going to move along:

Ladies- Proverbs 31

We need to learn how to use the time before we're involved with any man for Abba's utmost glory! We need to stop dragging through it as though it's some punishment we don't deserve; we need to stop wasting this time and start embracing it!


The things we can do with this time when we look at it with a whole new attitude is awesome.

Not Pepsi.

Let’s talk beverages.

You don't WHAT?

My testimony.

How's your love life?

Just Friends

I have guy friends who have come to me and said "hey you know, I'm helping this girl out" or "this girl just needs someone to listen, so I told her I'll be there for her". And the same with my girlfriends, they'll mention to me about how they're helping a guy out. They don't realize why this can irk me so much.. I mean, it's just being there, being a friend.. right?

What is Love?

So what's love? I asked some of my friends what key factors were needed for love to mean something to them and these were their responses: